I'm sure every new mom goes through this at some point or another, but I am definitely feeling restless and unproductive. Porter will come home and show me his dentures and what he's been working on, and the results of his hard work and success are clearly visible. Whereas I feel my results and success are not as visible. I know I'm making a difference for Harrison and nothing is as important as taking care of him but results are definitely long term and I can't exactly show my results as I could've done when I was working. It's definitely an adjustment that I'm still working on.
So since I can't show my results by working I've taken up running. I wanted something that was just for me that I could work on, and it wasn't my first choice (I don't love running) but I felt like I didn't have many options down here. I've come to enjoy it now though, I've been running since the beginning of May and I can see some results, and I love the way I feel when I'm done, clearheaded and refreshed. Plus the gym overlooks the swimming pool at our complex and I love to people watch. I'm nowhere near running a marathon or even a half marathon but I hope with my progression I can get there someday.