Thursday, July 21, 2011

Restless

I'm sure every new mom goes through this at some point or another, but I am definitely feeling restless and unproductive. Porter will come home and show me his dentures and what he's been working on, and the results of his hard work and success are clearly visible. Whereas I feel my results and success are not as visible. I know I'm making a difference for Harrison and nothing is as important as taking care of him but results are definitely long term and I can't exactly show my results as I could've done when I was working. It's definitely an adjustment that I'm still working on.
So since I can't show my results by working I've taken up running. I wanted something that was just for me that I could work on, and it wasn't my first choice (I don't love running) but I felt like I didn't have many options down here. I've come to enjoy it now though, I've been running since the beginning of May and I can see some results, and I love the way I feel when I'm done, clearheaded and refreshed. Plus the gym overlooks the swimming pool at our complex and I love to people watch. I'm nowhere near running a marathon or even a half marathon but I hope with my progression I can get there someday.

3 comments:

Laci, Jonn, Kaden and Maylee said...

I know exactly how you are feeling....i think being a mommy is probably one of the hardest jobs there is! But so worth it! I definitely have my hard days!! I was actually thinking of starting up running earlier today! I am not much of a fan either but I need to do something to get my baby pounds off! I hope I enjoy it as much as you do! Miss you guys!!! Love ya tons!

Cassi said...

I think every mother knows how your feeling. I always seem to feel that way when I'm folding laundry. I always think "this is all I'm good for...folding clothes. I'm going to fold clothes the rest of my life". Haha, depressing. But you've just gone from either or schoolalways working at least part time to just staying home...far away from home. Its gotta be a huge adjustment. I'm impressed you've taken up running. Something I've always wanted to do but never had the motivation. Good for you! That's something to be proud of!

Tracee said...

I don't understand the mom thing, but I think it's awesome that you've started running. That takes serious amounts of control and discipline. Something the Larson's lack. But feeling a difference in yourself is a huge thing, and I'm impressed! Good job!